What If Staying Stops Feeling Safe? The Fear of Being Trans in America
Many queer and transgender people grew up knowing they were different — and somehow knowing that being discovered could be dangerous. Now,…
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Under The Rainbow is a weekly personal storytelling series from QueerDispatch built around real moments, memories, and experiences from my life.
Some stories are funny. Some are painful. Some are about growing up queer before I had the language for it. Others are about family, survival, community, fear, joy, or the strange little moments that stay with you forever.
This series isn’t fiction, and it isn’t written from a distance. These are lived experiences — told honestly, with reflection, context, and the understanding that personal stories are political stories too.
From childhood memories and quiet realizations to moments of rejection, affirmation, and unexpected belonging, Under The Rainbow explores what it means to grow into yourself in a world that doesn’t always make room for you.
These stories may be deeply personal, but they are not only about me. They are about memory, identity, resilience, and the people and places that shape us along the way.
FUCK THE STORM: Mingling In The Woods With Fellow Lesbians
Pooza does not make me forget that I am transgender. I never forgot, and I don’t want to. It makes me proud…
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There Is No Entrance Exam for Womanhood
Sometimes the hardest person to convince that you belong is yourself. A personal reflection on missed girlhood, femininity, gender expression and learning…
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UNDER THE RAINBOW: Sometimes I Hope NOTHING Happens at All
New Jersey law protects my right to use the women’s restroom. But knowing I’m legally protected doesn’t stop the fear of confrontation,…
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Under The Rainbow: Sometimes the Bravest Thing You Can Do Is Have an Ordinary Day
Sometimes the most meaningful day isn’t marked by headlines or history—it’s the day where nothing happens at all. After spending a summer…
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Under The Rainbow: Why the Perm Matters
Why does a perm matter so much? Because sometimes gender expression isn’t about performance — it’s about memory, identity, and reconnecting with…
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Under The Rainbow: The Time I Didn’t Run
Before I was out to the world, there was a salon in a dying New Jersey mall where I stopped feeling like…
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The Times I Got Caught
A deeply personal story about being caught, being misunderstood, and the words that never left.
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I Didn’t Run From the Pink
I didn’t run from the pink. I ran because they would know. A childhood memory about identity, fear, and being seen too…
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